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So remember how I said I lived with my dad up until 2 years ago? Yeah, well, that's because my mother is a psychotic hormonal coke-fiend who pretty much ruined my childhood. She used to torment me when I was young, and since my dad couldn't get custudy that pretty much meant I was left all by my lonesome at this insane bitches mercy. :/ bummer, man. right?

Well the other day when I went to hang out with my Dad, he said he wanted to tell me some stuff about mom and I figured it was gonna be pretty bad. It was. :( apparently my Mom is wanting to see me...make amends or some bullcrap like that. I dont like it, she was a schizoid from Hell. like, I honestly dont know what I'm going to say to her when I see her but Im pouring my guts out to this blog anyway hoping something will come up in my brain that will help.

My mom...I haven't talked to her in so long, the last time I think was when she came over to see my dad and was trying to bum money for cigarettes or alcohol or drugs or whatever the fuck else she needed...its all she ever does to my dad, and he does it for her because he's still in love with the woman she used to be and blah blah blah blah no one wants to listen to your stupid shit about your mom and dad June. still, I told her to get the hell out of my house last time I saw her, sooooooo....yea. That was back when I was 14, too.

when i was little, like under 10, she used to call me a whore and tell me I was stealing men from her. That doesnt make any fucking sense, but then she was usually too strung out on drugs to think straight or make any sense. I remember one time when she didnt have enough money to buy what we needed from the groscry store, and she took me home very calmly and proceeded to destroy everything in our house and just fuck up our home...I hid under bed the whoel time. it was scary as fuck for a little 10 year old!

so yea...Im not very interested in what she has to say, but grrrrrrr I suppose Ill have to give it a shot. I mean she is my mom afterall. Gotta go to work again now, but ill post about this later. as if anyone really cares. lol Byeee <3