I don't know what to do right now or how to put into words what Ive just fucking seen.

Y'know when you see something that just...doesnt make sense? You cant explain it and it wont be believed by anyone, and so you just brush it off and try to stuff it down. Well  icant do that anymore. I thought I was imagining this but I can't be anymore, it doesnt make any sense and I'm perfectly lucid. I'm not doing cocaine, I'm not near scizophrenic like my mom and.......

I saw Markus this time. but he was with that man that Ive been seeing, seeing out of the corner of my eye and feeling in the shadows....literally feeling. markus's face.....it was so pale white, like a ghost. let me try to explain the situation in which this ocured, actually. it'll make more sense in conttext, or at least thats what i hope. actually I'm gonna grab a cigarette first

Okay. What I havent said lately about Markus disappearing is that its not just him. the thing is, lots of kids have been going missing. And they think its some pedophile or something, but I know different. I know different and I CANT FUCKING TELL ANYONE, because they'll just think Im crazy....every time one of these kids, has gone missing I've seen them except markus...until now. There's been....this man. He wears a suit and I thought, 'holy shit, there's the guy!' and reported him to the police. But they have no idea what I'm talking about.

And now....nnow I've seen him with markus. and I don't like it, because markus didn't look human anymore, and the man.....the man doesn't have a face. I...I dont know what to think of that. I dont want to think about that, because it implies so much more is going on here than anyone knows and how do I deal with being the only person who knows about this? What do i do right now? Y'know? I hate it when I'm right.

I hope Im not going crazy, but I'm really questioning myself lately. Maybe I should stop taking these stupid fucking happy pills for my depression and see what happens.