Fun times

I went out into the country side with a couple of friends including Carol and we had a lot of fun. I found out that I love love LOVE dune buggys. I mean I am making it my mission to buy or build one by the end of this year, it was sooo much fun! Other than that, it was a bunch of us just having a good time, cooking out and drinking and talking. I hung back a little at first, lost in my BS introspection but after a little while I was able to get into the swing of the party and enjoy my time.

Particularly after riding in the dune buggy.

What it really reinforced for me though was that i cant run away from my home and I can still live my life and have fun. Joy is not something which is external it is inside me and inside us all and Slenderman cant take that away. When I was out there riding around with the sun set in the distance, the wind rushing thru my hair and nothing but land and road before me, I just knew. I felt it in my bones that life could still be worth living even when the bad things happen.

So Slenderman and all your cronys? Fuck off and stop pestering people. And every one out there who feels hopeless and scared or is thinking about running, stop feeling so bad. Youre still here to breath the air and everything will be alright in the end...one step at a time were gonna take this thing on. You just gotta stay strong.

-June

Fuck.

i didn't post that. Or at least, I dont remember posting that. Whatever the case, i changed the password on my account to be sure. I'm worried that theres someone out there who knows about me or some 'proxy' thing, although Im not sure about those people or their motives. I think maybe it's just crazy fucks who think they're serving a greater cause by 'joining' Slenderman or whatever the hell that means. I dont think Slenderman can take over people, personally. It just doesnt seem....right.

regardless...we'll see how things go these next few days. Carol's been staying over because shes understandably worried bout me, and every day I grow more and more ready to tell her about all this. She already knows something is up...it's only a matter of time before i blow my cover, like get drunk and fuckin tell her or something. lol I also like how this blog has become so dead serious and now its all about my feelings and thoughts even though this is something I never wanted to do in the first place. lol

In Slender news, Ive seen the children more andmore lately...it kind of scares me. I woke up in my bed the other day and there were...actually children standing there. At least 10 of them, staring at me with blank expressions and white faces. Does it have to do with that post about the children and Father Dearest? maybe. Im not smart or informed enough to know. by extension I've seen Slenderman a lot more lately along with them, though not when they are in my bedroom strangely enough. he appears standing in all sorts of places, watching children, just standing there staring.

I really wish there was some way of getting out of this. But Im not giving up just because my life isnt going as planned. No, that isn't how I live my life and just because Slenderp is around doesnt mean I'm going to give him what he wants and ruin myself. I will survive. I am woman, hear me roar!! Other cheesy song refference! XD

So yeah. I know no one is reading, but adios!